I was packing up boxes and preparing my move. I was in my garage, thinking how sad it is to be moving, when I picked up a box and see a family of mice.

They may have been rats!

I may have screamed. It sounded like a tea pot brought to boil. So, I think from my reaction, they had to be big, huge rats! No adult man, screams over mice... Dirty, filthy, screeching mice!

I took a break from the garage and went upstairs to pack things in my apartment. When I bent down to move an empty box out of my way, I heard a crack in my back, but may have been muscles tearing across some sharp bone. I lost all power from my hips down and had to lay down on the floor.

I was in so much pain.

I stayed on the that spot on the floor for about two hours. Later, I crawled to my bed, but that was uncomfortable, so back to the floor I went.

It's a little better now, but it's like every muscle in my body has been pulled. I need painkillers so bad.

The last time I felt pain like this was when I was moving from Los Angeles to here... Hmmm, wonder what that means, other than someone else should pack my belongings for me?

I wish I had cars like Captain Scarlet. No Four cylinders here, mate. I bet they have beds and showers in them!

Okay, How cool is this? Anyone who has ever had a slot car, or Hot Wheels has imagined what it would be like to put a camera in it.

Watch all of it and don't miss the ending where you see the hand of God that controls all our lives. Oh and buckle up!

Camera Car

Here's the car I want now, I saw it on Tee Vee and did a search for it.

My new car!

I love it. Looks pretty Space Age and compact. I might be able to put it my Honda's trunk.

Speaking of Trunk... we all kinda knew this right?

Sulu Gay!

I wish I had all the Star Trek shows now, cause I would love to cut together any Gay moments, like when Christian Slater is in silhouette standing in Sulu's doorway all sexy like...Mmmmm.

Then there's

Romance of the Jedi:

Romance of the Jedi?

Steve sent me this for the Yoda thing:

Yo da Man!

Also, sadly... Red Six is down...

Texas boy, William Hootkins has passed away after a battle with pancreatic cancer. Diagnosed earlier this year, he died on October 23rd at St Johns Hospital in Santa Monica near his Californian home. He was 58.

Hootkins worked regularly on both sides of the Atlantic. His first film role was in 1977, playing Jedi fighter Jek Porkins (aka Red Six) in George Lucas' Star Wars.

He also appeared in two "Pink Panther" films starring Peter Sellers, Flash Gordon, Batman, Raiders of the Lost Ark, Superman IV: The Quest for Peace, The Island of Dr. Moreau, A River Runs Through It and the upcoming Colour Me Kubrick, starring John Malkovich.

In Texas, when I lived there he was legendary to actors.

Am I wrong or is Marcia Cross from "Desperate Housewives" the most beautiful woman in the whole wide World?

I don't watch the show, but I saw this picture and thought she is so beautiful she's freakish. It's like in the spectrum of appearance she's push the envelope of attractiveness till it's merged with the other end, which is near my neighborhood. The dodgy end.

I'm just freakish looking.

Not that I want to look like her, but I don't mind looking AT her. I used to fantasize as a kid in school, How could I get the hottest girl in school to pay attention to me?

At First the fantasies all seemed to involve kidnapping, but later I got realistic and believed that if I could get a hair sample I might be able to clone a sex slave version of her. Cloning just started being popular then and it seemed so possible to a 12 year old.

Then it occurred to me that even hot girls like to laugh, so I knew I could make her laugh, cause this one cheerleader laughed at me all the time. Usually it was her pointing and laughing at me. I was a class clown.

Girls are way more mature than boys and some realize once the beauty fades, What will there be to do then, but laugh?

I was thinking of the girls I had crushes on earlier today and wondering what they were doing these days. I heated up some left overs wondering who they'd be eating with, did they have nice husbands, lots of kids, did they cook great meals...

I took my plate of reheated Alice Springs Chicken from Outhouse Steakback and crawled into bed to watch the DVD, "Rod Serling: Submitted for Your Approval," it's a good documentary about the life of the creator of, "The Twilight Zone."

It's kind of a sad story about creating art, selling out, losing your soul... I fell asleep sad and woke up a few hours later when I rolled over and put my face into the plate of cold Garlic Roasted Mashed Potatoes that I couldn't finish and left sitting in the bed.

I'm sure they all ain't Winners, but I do think those I grew up with have to have better lives than I have right now.

My lease is up, no respectable offer of employment even with the fantastic ratings have come in from Fresno radio stations, and either I must move on to other cities whose stations will treat me properly, or find another way to make money.

My plan is to convert my Honda into something like this; That way I can live and drive around almost free. I hope my lil' Four cylinders can take the weight, cause I will need my tub, refrigerator and my washer and dryer inside.

I was thinking of using one of those Tuff-Sheds, or a Garden Shed that I measured outside of Home Depot. All I need is some polyester and a hot looking chick like in the picture... I'll have it made in the shade!

I talked with some local customizers who also watch MTV's, "Pimp My Ride," like I do, gave them my plans and after they stopped laughing at me said they could do it.

Later, I watched Mark Wexler's, "Tell Them Who You Are."

I wish I were a better writer and had words to tell you better how moved I am by this film. I just rented it from Netflix, but will now buy it.

I haven't spoken with my own father for Ten years. I'm old enough and should be smart enough to figure out how to make it work between us before it's too late.

But I can't...

I have been crying for 20 minutes. I haven't cried in years. My throat is so sore from the lump that is in it. I can't see the screen of my laptop very well from my tears.

I rented this movie because I am a fan of Haskell Wexler, who was one of the most important cinematographers of the '60s and '70s, and the father and subject of this film. It's so much more than a biography. It's about fathers and sons and how hard it can be for some to communicate and love. You should watch it, or get it for a friend.

Aaron knows I love movies, he loves movies, now he loves Thai movies, and he speaks Thai, so he sends me this:

Subject: Scared!

Just saw this trailer today! Dude get on a plane & get here by Nov.
10th so we can go see this scary movie!!!

Scared!

It's all in Thai, so this goes straight to the trailer:

Scared! Trailer

-Aaron
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I'm watching Les Blank's, "Burden of Dreams," about German filmmaker Werner Herzog desperately trying to complete the most ambitious and difficult film of his career, "Fitzcarraldo," the story of one man's attempt to build an opera house deep in the Amazon jungle.

The locations look like how I imagine Aaron lives. In a thick Jungle.

There are some amazing things in it as Werner Herzog and Fitzcarraldo try pulling a steamship over a mountain without any special effects!

I think I should film my lil' Honda Condo pulling itself up and over the mountain past the Grapevine into Los Angeles.

Who is Number One?

That's Right! George Michael, Andrew Ridgeley and Arbitron all know who is Number One!

So Fresno Radio Stations, Hell radio stations anywhere... You want your Station to be Number One, too? Then Call the number, 559-449-7617 and set up a meeting with ME.

Schedule a time to get together to discuss, "How I can bring my listeners to your party and how you can Win with Me!"

Infinity, Sirius, BBC, Emmis, XM, NextMedia, Entercom, Cox, Wilks...

Well, Wilks, You waited too long! The rest of you keep the offers coming!

Clear Channel, What are you looking at? Oh, I guess you can rehire me... If you beat these other offers!

Thanks to everyone that made it Number One! You really know how to make a guy who was just "Fired" feel very happy!!! Seriously? How funny is that?

It's like the guy who threw away the winning lotto ticket, then realizes what he's done after another person cashes it in. You never know what you had until you tell them to vacate the building. Then the ratings come in!

How like the ending of, "Private Parts" is that?

Thanks for all the kind words, support, flowers, cards and the parties! Spread the word, You and the boys of The Front Row, Won! You guys Really Do ROCK!

YAY!!! Thanks to several Radio Stations in the Market calling here at home, I have heard the GREAT NEWS!!!

Guess who was Number #1 ? Men 18-34 our Target Audience with 10.3 Share.

We beat Stern and Everyone and we were "let go!"

That should make Clear Channel feel funny for canning me.

Told you more Watts Valley Wolf Ape pictures would come in...

I'm so excited today!

Today is when the Arbitron Ratings come out. These ratings cover the time Brad and I were hosting the Front Row Morning Show alone. These do not include Jen as she was raising a new member of the family.

I'm hoping the ratings will be great!

I know it won't make any difference to those in charge. No one likes to admit they made a mistake. People with big egos and big insecurities just deny and sweep it under the rug. Sometimes they try and spin it to their advantage and sell those high ratings to unsuspecting advertisers as ratings of the new guy.

This mostly happens in small markets. Those that have successfully moved to larger markets have no qualms about hiring back talent they've let go, when they realize they made a mistake. I've been fired and rehired by the same station twice. But that was in market Number 5 and Number 2. What's Fresno? Number 69 or something?

But hopefully another more qualified eye will see these ratings and think, "Gee, I want those ratings at my station!"

I'm sure there will be another Fresno Bee article on the way if the ratings are good. So maybe all the press will make part of a nice package in my portfolio to show those in a hiring mood.

Been watching a lot of horror movies on tv. Some are pretty bad. Some like to be more than they should be. Some of the best are ones that have no problem being low budget and trashy. They just tell a simple story without being flashy. Just introduce us to characters we like and then figure out cool ways to kill them. AMC is showing a lot of movies I grew up watching on Monsterfest.

I just wish AMC was commercial free and without edits.

As I write this there is a pretty good show called, "Entertainment Weekly's Scariest Movies."

Hosted by Bruce Campbell, this documentary counts down the twenty scariest movies of all time. The show has interviews with Richard Donner ("The Omen"), John Carpenter ("The Thing"), Craig T. Nelson ("Poltergeist") and has easy horror movie trivia throughout. Still at this hour of the morning, it's fun!

It's making me really want to crank out a cheap and fast horror movie. A friend was over visiting me last night and I played some video for a few porno movies I voiced the trailers for and the filmmakers called last Sunday telling me I should take my last check and make a film. Do I want to do more porn?

Now a Horror/Porn movie might be fun! I know a lot of sexy Goth girls here in Fresno that would do it!

Hmmm, I instinctively just plugged my DV Camera in to recharge it when I typed that last sentence. Weird...

I love Chevy's Crispy Flautas!

With all the emotional pain and depression I'm going through now in my life, they are the one constant that makes my toilet need plunging.

I swear, you eat these and it's like you are a donut, put them in your mouth and they fall right out the other end. It's like there's no speed bump from your mouth to your ass!

And spicy!!!

Oh well, I love 'em!

I watched another fun documentary today called, "The Magic of Fellini," directed by actress Carmen Piccini about the life and career of late film legend Federico Fellini.

I loved the archival footage, and it had clips that I haven't seen in any of the other docs about him..

The film contains interviews with Anthony Quinn, Claudia Cardinale, Anita Ekberg, Woody Allen, Martin Scorsese, and Lina Wertmüller, and features music by Nino Rota.

My favorite story in the film is Fellini's friend is talking about how Fellini loved women with big boobies and glamor, but when he met the woman of his life she was small, like a stick with no big boobies? His friend didn't understand...

Fellini says, "Yes, but you know, this lil' one makes me laugh!"

Of course that lil' one was Giulietta Masina, who was a favorite actress of mine!

After seeing this film, it made me want to watch all of Federico Fellini's films again, but I just went through them all about a year and a half ago.

Okay, maybe just a few again...

The Watts Valley Wolf Ape pics flood in after Aaron sends me the pic from yesterday. It's that time of the year and folks know that story scares me. When I was a kid I use to be haunted by dreams of a wolf stalking me in the dark forest behind our Missouri farm. Several dreams ended the same way...

I was on one side of this stream that divided the woods and through the thicket I could see this big wolf moving along with me but on the other side of the water. It's eyes were sometimes Red and sometimes Green. I was always scared. It would growl so deep. When I grew up, I wondered if it was me just starting my habit of snoring...

One time, I believed if I confronted the big wolf I wouldn't be afraid anymore. It was crawling and slowly slipping down the muddy bank to the edge of the water. It lowered it's snout into the Black creek and began drinking all the while starring at me.

I believed if I did exactly like him, he would think I was another wolf. So I too crawled down to the waters edge. I began slipping in the mud. I had no traction and was afraid I would end up in the water.

Finally, on my knees, I lowered myself down to the water and looked up to see the wolf looking at me, waiting to see what I would do...

I looked down to drink and in my reflection in the water it was a wolf starring back. I was the wolf, or another wolf. But in reality I was just wet when I woke up and so was my bed.

The picture here was sent anonymously, but the return e-mail address had the word "hunter" in it, so maybe it's real, or maybe some hunter is pulling the wool over my eyes!

Sunday Nights are always strange for me. Ever since I was a lil' kid, Sunday Night was a sad thing knowing school was Tomorrow and I hadn't studied, or done my homework. As an adult, I know I have to go back to work. But being unemployed the feelings are still there.

I just goofed off and haven't done what is necessary to take care of my self this weekend.

Watching "Breaking Bonaduce," Danny is in a really cool New Age Rehab center that I want to go to. I don't drink, do drugs, smoke, or anything too bad, but I'd love going to this place I think.

I remember being at Borders in Hollywood and at the cafe met a guy who was a monk, or something and lived in Malibu. He had no job, but did something at a center that took care of him and other monks. Here's this monk at Borders, reading, drinking coffee and in Hollywood... His life looked pretty good. He didn't have a chick on his arm, so maybe that's part of his calm demeanor. You'd think I'd be the calmest guy in the world.

On "Breaking Bonaduce," I'm beginning to think his problem is he's busting his ass off and he has a wife that lives in his mansion, spends all day spending his money and then she busts his balls for nothing all night.

Steve sent me links that have been great time killers...

Top 100 toys of the 70s and 80s

You will remember these toys even if you didn't get them. It's amazing how dangerous some of our toys were!

I wish this was my real world and all this was possible...

Tony Hawk's American Wasteland

Aaron has found a skeleton to a possible Watts Valley Wolf Ape with HOOFS!!! A canine with cloven hoofs, how scary is that?

A friend rented some DVDs and brought them over for us to watch, but we never got around to seeing them because we talked, snacked and flipped around the channels. There was some good stuff on TV!

There are more and more ghost shows. Some good and some just silly, but even those are fun to watch.

"The Godfather" One and Two were on. Can't miss that when it's on.

"The Untouchables" can't miss the Odessa Steps redo sequence in that!

It was a Robert Deniro film fest.

Monster movies are here now that Halloween is getting close.

I got a list of movies I want to watch is Halloween Season:

"Black Sunday" A beautiful Bava film with a great story and atmosphere.

"Black Sabbath" This is creepier than anything that's come along in years.

"Two Thousand Maniacs!" Drive-in laughs and terror with ingenious kills, fun to watch with a group.

"Twitch of the Death Nerve" An early "slasher" film.

"Suspiria" Use of color, sets, and cinematography are wonderful.

"The Changeling" Incredible atmosphere and scary with no gore.

"Kwaidan" Beautiful set pieces and wonderful stories from Japan.

"Ginger Snaps" Lycanthropy strikes a girl when she (and her hormones) least expect it.

"Audition" I love this movie! It tripped me out! Stick around for the last 20 minutes...

"The Attic Expeditions" A neat, low-budget, direct-to-video film that has more depth to it than most films in theaters.

"Ultraviolet" Cops, Vampires, Cool.

"Dagon" Fun, tense, "fish out of water" tale with some real surprises.

"Dead Alive" Fun splatstick/horror/comedy from the director of "Lord of the Rings" and the new "King Kong."

My lease is up and I need to find another place to live. Do I stay in Fresno? With little chance of working again? How can you get another apartment without a job? These are the troubling things going on with me right now.

I could really save money if I move into my Honda, but being 6 foot 2 inches makes it a bit uncomfortable.

Where will I keep my microwave? Where will I plug in?

A few friends have offered to let me move in with them, but that too comes with a heavy price. A few radio job offers require I move to parts of Hurricane Alley. A few nightmares predict me hauling my possessions in a grocery cart.

At the store I look at the price of Ramen noodles, they seem to not have gone up in price in the last 100 years. Aaron eats noodles every day in Thailand. I need to start living on these, I guess. One serving only contains 3000 milligrams of Sodium.

I've seen the light, thanks to this book!

The Official Ramen Homepage check it out!

As I write this, I'm in the middle of, "Light Keeps Me Company" a video I have wanted to watch for sometime, so I rented it from Green Cine.

There are some great interviews with Woody Allen, Bibi Andersson, Harriet Andersson, directed by Carl-Gustaf Nykvist, son of legendary cinematographer Sven Nykvist, who the film is about.

Nykvist's career came to an end when he was diagnosed with a rare disorder that affects his speech. The film is about Nykvist's upbringing and turbulent private life, a divorce, the suicide of one of his sons, his collaboration with Ingmar Bergman, who recalls, "I don't miss making films, but I miss the collaboration with Sven."

In the film Nykvist said something that made me stop it and think about it, "I feel the light around me, wrapped in it, how can you feel lonely in the light?"

I also rented, but this time from Netflix, "The Work of Director Anton Corbijn" about the Dutch artist Anton Corbijn, known for the music videos he directs and his famous photographs. When I was a subscriber to NME, it was his work I looked forward to seeing.

His work with Joy Division, U2 and Depeche Mode is amazing, plus I've never seen Samantha Morton look hotter than through his lens.

I was showing the DVD to a friend who was so mesmerized by it, that she fell asleep hard and fast.

The interesting thing about both DVDs that I was unaware of before seeing them, is that Nykvist's parents were Missionaries and Corbijn's father was a Vicar.

Somehow photography saved them and they both found spirituality in images.

I've watched so many videos and stared at my own recent video work while editing new stuff, my eyes are blurry and Red. When I watch these works by the greats, it is inspiring, but then also, What can I say, that hasn't been said by others better?

It really has all been done before, Hasn't it?

I'll have to aim lower in my work, just so I can get out of the bed by 2PM.

Watched The White Stripes on Charlie Rose talk and then perform. Jack talked about wanting to be a filmmaker and how he used to make TV commercials when he was younger. He said his hero was Orson Welles and that it was sad that with all that Welles had done, that there was no statue to him.

When I think of Jack and Meg, I think about riding around with Aaron in his Passat with every song they've made available playing in his CD player.

Jack seems so effortlessly creative, but also prolific. It's one thing to be creative, but to be able to act upon it without fear is the real gift.

I think of Ingmar Bergman talking in the documentary I just watched the other day, How he used to be paralyzed with fear before he created anything. It was the fear of being judged poorly.

Somehow, great people make the pain of not creating, higher than the pain of being told you've failed.

Bergman said he always had another project going before the reviews came in on the last work. That way there was a distraction from poor news. Nothing is worse than hearing criticism and have nothing going on at the time to pour yourself into...

I talked with my friend Steve earlier and he said that I was not allowed to leave Fresno until I made my TV show, or a Film. Even if a job comes in and I'm hired away, I have to do one of those things.

Some friends are tough.

I was just watching, "Cinema Europe: The Other Hollywood" by Kevin Brownlow. Narrated by Kenneth Branagh, it's about the birth of cinema. It documents the earliest days of the movie industry, spotlighting the enormous contribution made by Europeans, and includes rare footage from early films and interviews with some cinematic pioneers.

There's some amazing stories in this series, one that made me think was about a German studio that was still in business as the market crash was destroying lives all around it. They needed extras for some films they making, so one day they announce people could make say, $10 a day... 500 people show up. The boss goes, "Oh, then tomorrow we only pay, $5 a day!"

The next day 2000 people show up.

The next day he will pay only $1 a day.

5000 people show up for work. They were starving from the depression as the pockets of the studio was filling up.

Then there was the story of how the Nazis tried to erase the works of Jewish intellectuals and filmmakers by burning their creations. Almost overnight cinematic techniques and works of art were lost forever.

One great Jewish filmmaker went to the head of UFA studios and asked to be removed from his contract because he might need to leave Germany for his safety. The head said, "Don't worry! We are behind you, we will stand and support all our Jewish Directors!"

Guess how long the Boss kept his word?

About as long as it took you to read that question.

We can learn a lot from History. We learn that we never learn and are doomed to repeat ourselves.

I just spent $42.00 at Outhouse Steakback! Money I need!

Well, offers for work are coming in and the Radio Stations are not in this area. That sucks... Would like to stay, but no one here is stepping up to the plate.

I am like a sharecropper, gotta move to where the work is...

Openings come open and slots are filled, we are passed up and precious time is killed.

Assholes who sucked, were widely hated and not missed are getting the gigs to which we were fated and promised.

Bosses who tell us to fly a kite and place the same on every station force us to satellite and dumb down the entire nation.

Talent is not seeded in empty barren rows that which is needed does not grow so listeners were defeated and the Industy blows.

Stayed cooped up today with this feeling of being contagious. Only got out for snacks and beverages.

Watched a lot of Tee Vee.

Saw "Antwone Fisher" got all chocked up. Denzel Washington rocks! Anyone see Derek Luke in anything lately? Shouldn't he be the new guy we all love?

AMC isn't the same anymore, but they got a kickass promo for Halloween that's cut to West Indian Girl's "What Are You Afraid Of?" and they've been playing it every Five minutes.

I know I have the CD somewhere, but I needed to hear them so bad. They, like The Shins can also change your life and my life needs a'changin'.

I ran out to B&N to buy it again!

While purchasing it, a cute girl asked the clerk if they had the "Elizabethtown" soundtrack... I had to jump in and say how much I loved that movie.

We talked about "The Road Map" and other things in the film. I saw her later with her boyfriend and they were so cool looking together. He looked like a Rock Star and was about three feet taller than her.

I couldn't wait to get back home and listen to West Indian Girl, but I stopped off at the store to fill up on Klondike bars and while loading up saw a great deal on "Hot Pockets." I bought about Ten boxes.

Emily my clerk said, "Are you gonna eat all these by yourself?"

I wasn't sure why she was asking, but I told her, "Oh no, I'm having a Hot Pocket Party!"

The older couple behind me giggled and looked at each other shaking their heads with that, "Boy, He's a real loser," kind of look.

Home.

I toss my kill into the fridge and slide my music into my PowerBook G4. The disc glides in as smoothly as my eyelids slip across my tears.

West Indian Girl's

"What Are You Afraid Of?"

I lost myself inside someone else
I couldn't see the lines between her and me
On a darker road, the fear I've shown
With eyes of stone, he walks alone

What are you afraid of?
All the years fade away
What are you made of?
From the ties that hold us down
What are you fighting for?
To feel them all
What are you dying for?
To be free

Who tonight will change your life
To jump on a plane and land a
Thousand miles away
Just to see what we came to be

What are you afraid of?
All the years fade away
What are you made of?
From the ties that hold us down
What are you fighting for?
To feel them all
What are you dying for?
To be free

Inside my eyes

There's no chance of losing
When there's no chance at all
As time goes by, I forget why
From a distant view it might still be true
There's a part of me that lives for you.

What are you afraid of?
All the years fade away
What are you made of?
From the ties that hold us down
What are you fighting for?
To feel them all
What are you dying for?
To be free

Still ill...

The great thing is, I don't have to worry about calling in sick. I can just be sick and not worry about work.

I hardly opened my eyes today. I don't even have them open now as I type this. My head is throbbing and I haven't eaten a thing all day. I'm weak and woozy. It may be the Bird Flu!

Went to see "Elizabethtown" and as I was sitting in the car before going to the theatre, NPR had a critic that was just slamming the film. I went anyway and loved it!

There's a thing in the film where Kirsten Dunst's character makes a map for Orlando Bloom. It's the coolest map in the World! The whole movie could have been that map and been really great. I know a lot of people will not like the movie, but I really did. I want a girl to make a map like that for me.

I was thinking about that map all day while laying in bed sick. It reminded me of a film I love and haven't seen in years called, "Map of the Human Heart." I need to rent that and see it again to see if it still holds up for me.

There were some odd parallels in, "Elizabethtown" for me:

My x-wife is also is a Flight Attendant.

Bloom's character is also booted by a large corporation and it's covered in the Press.

Orlando Bloom's dead dad's name is Mitchell. My x-wife's maiden name is Mitchell. "Mitchell" is also the name of my favorite MST3000 episode.

Well, there are more things similar, but I can't go into them now...

I didn't make it to LA. My road trip will have to happen later. Nothing sucks more than driving when you are dizzy.

I was so sick last night...

Food Poisoning I think. Fever. Vomiting. Strange Dreams.

I dreamed I was washing my face in the mirror and looked in and saw that I was an Alien. I suddenly remembered I was on a mission here on Earth to experience Love. It seems Love is God and Love is a commodity that once I receive it, would be able to take back to my Home World to share with my species. It would save my Planet as well as save me.

I woke up sad and sick...

I want to see, "Good Night and Good Luck", it's not playing near me yet, so I'm going back down to LA this weekend to see it.

We need to support this film because this Senator Joseph McCarthy is nuts! Next thing you know, he's got his own Fox Newsshow! We have to make sure he's stopped!

I don't know much about Politics, though I watched "Spin City" in reruns, but if guys like this McCarthy get these communist ’witch-hunts’ going, we'll never get to see a new Tim Robbins movie, no more Michael Moore, No "Ocean's 13", and soon the Olsen Twins will be dating history or worse!

Well, just kidding, but we are living in strange times where this can and is happening now in many ways... I'm sure I'm on some kind of Blacklist right now and readers of this page can pretty much figure out whose list I'm on.

Saw, "Serenity" last night and I truly LOVED it! The writing is just fantastic! I'll see it again and I'm buying the DVDs.

E-mails and calls still coming in about the Fresno Bee articles. The boycott that is taking place has Advertisers staying away and canceling accounts. Businesses are staying away just like listeners are... Other Radio Stations in town are telling me that their days are numbered.

"Let go of the Rock!"

Hey Front Row Fans!!! Go pick up Today's Fresno Bee, Another article featuring many of you who have written to me right here! Thanks to Rick Bentley for responding and listening to those that have been ignored by Clear Channel Fresno!

Well, other than Form Letters...

Go pick up The Fresno Bee, or go to their website and let me know what you think.

E-mails and phone calls are already pouring in...

Subject: I need you real bad, Jerry!
Date: Thu, 13 Oct 2005
To: lentz2001@yahoo.com

Check out the letter to the editor too. People need to
get busy writing and calling. I can’t stress this enough.

Debbie
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Thanks Debbie!!!

Cages are being rattled!

Attention other Radio Stations!: If you enjoy this type of Press and would like Positive Press and Ratings aimed at you, Offers are being taken right now to move THIS audience to your station. Call the number at the Left to set up an appointment to discuss the transition to your call letters!

It's been a while since I've eaten Gyros. I love 'em! Didn't know any places in Fresno where I could eat some, but last night went to Broilers next to Edwards Cinema in River Park and filled up real well.

There was a time when I would eat that stuff everyday. Gyros, Falafels, Stuffed Grape Leaves, Loofahs... Whaaa? Who am I Bill O'Reilly?

Been watching some thought provoking DVD's these last few days. I watched the bonus disc for "The Ingmar Bergman Collection." Due to the recall of the Ingmar Bergman Collection Boxset I missed getting it. So I rented it from Green Cine.The Bonus Disc has some great stuff:

"Intermezzo" - A Rare Conversation with Ingmar Bergman
An Interview with Ingmar Bergman (1970)
"Sven Nykvist: With One Eye He Cries" - A look at the celebrated Cinematographer and longtime Bergman collaborator
"Faro Island Mystique" -A featurette exploring the principal location of many Bergman films and a place I want to live!
American Cinematographer, April 1972: "Filmmaking in Sweden" - A collection of original articles on the works of Ingmar Bergman

Plus:
I rented, "Ingmar Bergman Makes a Movie" by director Vilgot Sjöman. I've wanted to see this for sometime. I saw it as a kid and was very influenced by it. I had to get my local library to rent it for me. It came in on 16mm and they had to set up a projector for me. I was 12 years old and watching Ingmar Bergman, they thought I was a freak!

Speaking of Freak! I ran into Dexter, a rather handsome Twin Brother from Another Mother Magician who works on "Criss Angel - Mindfreak." The guy is awesome, cool, talented and a fan of the show. I would so much love to work on that TV show. I can do a few illusions...

I have the ability to take a beautiful women disappear...

To: "Jerry Lentz"
Subject: Return of The Front Row

Thanks to Mac, the Front Row's back!

Steve
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Very cool! Steve and all the Apple people love us! First there was iJerry, now this!

More press on the way about the Front Row, so stay tuned! Thanks to all the fans for making that happen and keeping the word out there.

Some offers for work coming in, however talks continue as to whether I'll be working in Fresno or not. I do want to stay, but...

Was showing a friend my DVD of "28 Days Later" and she completely freaked out by letting out a scream at one point that I'm sure had my neighbors thinking I'd killed somebody.

I really love this movie! It's so well done. I love zombie movies and have been in Two as an actor. One, "The Dead Hate the Living" and a personal favorite and Classic, "City of the Living Dead." But when I worked on it, it was called, "Gates of Hell," I think.

At one point last night my friend discovered my front door wasn't locked, or even closed. This too freaked her out and troubled me. It was dark and she couldn't take anymore and we had to stop the movie just after the scene in the tunnel when the cab gets a flat. I think something like 10 minutes into the movie.

That means to me, the sign of a good scary movie!

I love the Halloween Season!

Hole

Crash and burn
All the stars explode tonight
How'd you get so desperate
How'd you stay alive
Help me please
Burn the sorrow from your eyes
Oh, come on be alive again
Don't lay down and die
Hey, hey
You know what to do
Oh, baby, drive away to Malibu
Get well soon
Please don't go any higher
How are you so burnt when
You're barely on fire
Cry to the angels
I'm gonna rescue you
I'm gonna set you free tonight, baby
Pour over me
Hey, hey
We're all watching you
Oh, baby, fly away to Malibu
Cry to the angels
And let them swallow you
Go and part the sea, yeah, in Malibu
..And the sun goes down
I watch you slip away
And the sun goes down
I walk into the waves
And I knew
Love would tear you apart
Oh and I knew
The darkest secret of your heart
I'm gonna follow you
Oh baby, fly away, yeah, to Malibu
Oceans of angels
Oceans of stars
Down by the sea is where you
Drown your scars
..I can't be near you
The light just radiates
I can't be near you
The light just radiates......

Rock Radio can be fun!

Chicks are always available to drop their panties for concert tickets. I will miss that, unless another Rock Station picks me up. I'm not sure how many girls will get nude and let me spank their nice round bare bottoms on say, Jack FM.

There's big changes ahead for Rock Radio, like some say, "No changes, just it's demise." But things we love always die and our favorite radio station formats are one of them.

Sweeping the country as Rock Stations become Spanish, Country Music, or Jack... Is the phrase that pays, "Just let go of the Rock!"

Ever since I was a kid, I would always hear that, "Rock is DEAD!"

Now it: "Just let go of the Rock!"

I just wanted to say thank you for inquiring about The Front Row Morning Show and how local radio is in danger. The Fresno Bee really shook some people up with last Thursday's Rick Bentley article "KRZR's 'Front Row' clears out after 14 years"

Rick Bentley

There are many that have responded to the article, but I would like you to have a chance to add your Two Cents where it will be heard and cared about.

Please take a moment and send a comment about how you feel to The Fresno Bee. Clear Channel is perpetrating the myth that there weren't enough fans of the Front Row so that their decision to switch from a local show that cared about the Valley to a Chicago based Stern clone, will appear to be the correct one.

There are many locally at Clear Channel Fresno who are afraid that this change will jeopardize their careers and are very quick to say, "We made the right decision!" so that they look like Company Men to those in charge.

Your job is to NOT be ignored! Keep pressure on them!

letters@fresnobee.com

The Fresno Bee E-Mail

Tell them your favorite memories, tell them how you feel having a DJ you grew up listening to get blown out just days after giving birth, tell them how you feel about a DJ that was like a brother to you get kicked out days after just getting married, and tell them how you feel about the loss of Local Radio to Nationally Syndicated Radio that reports nothing that relates to your life and family.

Tell them how you feel.

Well the Fresno Bee article came out and it was pretty good. Not too many inaccuracies. My name was spelled correctly.

The number of calls and e-mails I received after the paper came out shows you the power of the media.

#1. Just imagine the small percentage (let's just say 1%) of KRZR's listeners (who knows how small that is? Let's make a guess and say 10,000 people) realizing they can't get the story of what happened to the Front Row. They are not going to call the General Manager, the Sales Manager, the Vending Machine Manager, or even the Operations Manager... You don't call them to request a song, do you? No! You want to hear about the tragedy from the victims, just like Fox News! The listeners search online and find...

#2. My website. I have my home number post on the left.

#3. They call and leave wonderful messages of memories, laughs and sadness.

#4. Then others, they read The Fresno Bee, they search online, find my website, they call...

Awesome! Power to the people who surf and question authority!

One of the things that have cut into people's time spent listening to radio...

"Halo" the video game.

I'm so excited about Peter Jackson and Fran Walsh, the creative duo behind the "Lord of the Rings" trilogy and the upcoming "King Kong," they will serve as executive producers of a movie based on Microsoft's blockbuster "Halo" video game.

Microsoft hired Alex Garland ("28 Days Later") to write the screenplay and Bungie is involved.

"As a gaming fan, I'm excited to bring 'Halo's' premise, action and settings to the screen with all the specificity and reality today's technology can provide," Jackson said.

The movie will be shot entirely in the New Zealand capital of Wellington, with a budget of more than $100 million. Universal will handle domestic distribution and Fox international.

I was thinking I might like to buy one of these Home Automated External Defibrillators so I could stop my heart and do that whole Flatliners thing and leave my body and experience my After-Life!

But then, I might need a trusted friend to revive me!

I always liked that part of The Frightners when Frank Bannister (Michael J. Fox) who has seen spirits and apparitions ever since the car crash that killed his wife. Now he operates an amateur "ghostbusting" operation that is supposed to exorcise ghosts from people's houses -- the problem is that the ghosts who haunt those houses are in league with him.

Then Doctor Lucy Lynskey (Trini Alvarado) has to kill him with a defibrillator so he can at one point chase down Dee Wallace-Stone and Jake Busey, as homicidal young lovers.

"Frighteners" wasn't liked by a lot of my friends but I think it's Peter Jackson's best, goofy, splatter-gore.

I have some free time to watch movies, Hell, I have enough time to make some movies!

Yesterday I got a call from the Fresno Bee. This is not unusual as they call me every day. They call about subscribing to the newspaper, even though they tell me, after I yell at them, that they will remove me from their list.

They never do.

After taking a deep breath and preparing to goof on the telemarketer, it turns out it's columnist Rick Bentley who does the Radio Section wanting to ask me about the "Lay Off" at Clear Channel.

I was taken aback and unprepared. I've been interviewed before many times by Newspapers and magazines and rarely if at all have I been happy with the article later. Things always get taken wrong, out of context, or they have an agenda all their own and they are using you to give it a source.

I have yet to see it. It comes out this morning, but Rick seemed very nice on the phone. I wonder how it will be?

Watched a wonderful documentary on one of my favorite character actors.

One time, I was very miserable and a friend took me to see "Eraserhead" and to this day believe that film saved my life.

It was always a thrill to catch Jack Nance in other films. "Eraserhead" seemed so dream-like to me that Nance was a part of my inner world in some way.

I ran into Jack Nance at the bar in the Hollywood Hamlet when I was showing my ex-mother in law around Hollywood Blvd with my ex-wife. He was alone and I just had to say, "Hi! Big Fan!"

He took a strong liking to my ex-wife's mother and we sat and chatted. Several times I tried to break us away and let the man continue his day, but he really seemed to want to hang with us, or at least the women.

I said, "He let's get drinks sometime."

He said, "Let's drink now!"

He gave me his business card that simply said "Jack Nance" and a number. He said if they (the women) needed a guided tour to call him later.

We never called because the women were shy, but I called a few days later and found that the number was a hotel. I never left a message.

Some time later my ex-wife gave me the news of his murder/death. We were so sad and wished we had spent more time getting to know him.

David Lynch, Dennis Hopper, and Catherine Coulson tells some nice stories and express much love for Jack in "I Don't Know Jack." I recommend this to anyone that has a friend or family member that might have troubles fitting in with life's difficulties.

I still have that business card.
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Aaron's baby is HERE!!!

From: "Aaron Smith"
Subject: He's here, he's here!!!

And now... What you've all been waiting for... Introducing...

In the red corner, weighing in at 2960 grams and wearing an imitation
face of Winston Churchill. The brand new offspring of "Sow" Wilailuk
Prakhe and Aaron Smith.

Chimptested

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A few have asked me why there is no sound on Aaron's baby movie, well there is on the clip I have at my link here:

Just Like Daddy... All Gassy!

While babies aren't usually cute, this one is just as cute as Daddy!

Offers of travel, even World travel have come my way a lot these past few days. I know I should go, but something tells me to just chill and relax.

Boy, I've been sleeping better than I think I ever have in my whole life. I know I must be snoring like a freight train, cause my throat is sore and several large pillows are missing.

I've been talking with my friend Aaron in Thailand and I imagine his baby is just been born. I can't believe he's gonna be a daddy so soon. Time just flies when you sleep all day.

Nice e-mails and phone calls still pour in and that is so wonderful. You always hear stories how the audience is so quick to forget you, but they seem to be hanging in there.

There are some mp3s posted at the left to bring back the memories. There are more to be posted for you to enjoy and for radio stations to listen that might need a show.

I have such a hunger for French Toast, I hope Ihop or Denny's is open and not too crowded with Gangs right now. Cause I'm getting dressed for the First time in 23 hours! I might even shower!

Oh, who am I kidding...

I was started my Ramadan, the Islamic holy month of fasting and spiritual introspection by eating at Outback Steak House last night.

I felt so full. I still had a box of left overs when I left. I came home a dropped a couple of Ex-Lax pills with a Arrowhead chaser and read some of "Cary Grant: A Biography."

I was thinking earlier at dinner how there seems to be people currently who are famous that fall into a mold of Stars of the past. As if there are only a few slots available.

You know how when you move to a new city there are people that look and remind you of people in the last place?

George Cloony remind some of Cary Grant, but there's a part of this book where Grant is roommates with Randolph Scott and it's like they are describing Matt and Ben. I guess it could be Cloony and Pitt now.

If you were like some famous person in the past, who would you be?

I know who I'd like to be like, but I imagine who ever I am like, they were not famous. Unless they were famous for being unknown.

I imagine you in your past life would have been a great and attractive Star!

iChatted with Aaron from Thailand. Talked with his preggo wife Sow into the wee early morning. Talking with someone across the World, in full motion video, seeing them and hearing them for the cost of... Nuthin', just amazes me!

I should go to Thailand and visit, it looks like he's having the best time of his life.

I've been immersed in books lately that have been so good that I have almost forgotten the trouble my life is in...

You have to read this book if you love comic books and history, "The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay"

It's just the best!

I also picked up a book about Cary Grant because I listened to an interview with the author on KCRW and thought it sounded cool.

Started packing up already read books to sell, trade and to donate. I don't want to have to haul my crap again after not even a year. Moving just plan sucks! This is where the Homeless have it made, not too many personal items, just enough to fill a stolen shopping cart and you're good to go.

Okay! No more crazy talk about radio! It's over! History. Not going to be on the air in Fresno any more, I just feel it. Learn to love what ever you are being fed.

Grow up! It's like the local record stores that we all loved, but were replaced by Borders Music, or Amazon.com.

Satellite Radio, Internet Radio and personal non corporate Podcasting is it and you know it!

I was having French Toast this morning with a friend taking Mood Stabilizers. I wanted some so bad!

Mood Stabilizers.

It sounds so good. I first thought about when I was a kid and the Mood Rings came out and all the girls had one. It supposedly told you what mood you were in by changing colors, but I had a feeling it was just Heat.

My moods have been like a roller coaster and Not a Roller Coaster of Love! My moods have been racing down a dirt road with washed out gullies and holes and no shock absorbers. My moods are a Jetblue Airliner with landing gear gone faulty and Jodie Foster looking for a lost kid with striking Flight Attendants.

Mood Stabilizers. Sounds nice. I'd free base some of that!

It's early and it's Sunday and I'm getting my Special Prayers ready for Church. I should be excited, because the few times I really needed God's help, he's been there backing me up.

Sometimes he's packing heat!

Sometimes it seems he's not listening, but maybe he's thinking if he waits a little, I'll figure it out on my own.

Sometimes the wait is so long, I've forgotten what it was that was troubling me to begin with... And realize it wasn't worth the trouble.

Sometimes God's delays are not God's denials.

Many people try and put a Rating System on God. Like, What is God's Time Spent Listening? Like, If I don't see God's Numbers in the Top Three, I'm moving on to a faster and more popular God that the people of Chicago are praying to...

But maybe the Prayers weren't properly worded? Maybe the prayers needed to be less convoluted, more concise and less contradictory. Then maybe the answer to your prayers would be more beneficial to your situation and your life would be showered with abundance.

One of my favorite Disciples, Anthony son of Robbins wrote: The Quality of your Life Is the Quality of your Questions.

Just ask the right questions. Find the right questions. The right question/prayer can be so inspiring and powerful.

The perfect Question sometimes is it's own Answer!

"Can I work for people that don't want me?"

Been searching for work. Not much need for a radio personality. I'm so drained. I 've heard from many old friends who also work in radio, or I should say, worked in radio. They too, have been booted.

Trying to be funny and make people laugh on the radio is going the way of Burlesque and Vaudeville.

Podcasts are clogging up listening time like bad Direct to Video movies steal shelf space from small art films.

There's always work in Iraq:

Jerry,

You may not remember me, but you answered some
questions I sent you about Broadcasting when I was
at UCLA. You were very nice and funny. I always
believed Radio/Television would help me see the
World and it has.

You helped me, now maybe I can return the favor.

Through my dad, I now work with many Americans
in the rebuilding of the Middle East. I work as a DJ
playing Rock at a station that has an amazing history
as does the building we are in. There are many