Sometimes I get this strong uncontrollable urge to jump in a car and run away.

Not necessarily my car.

Do you ever fantasized about going to an expensive car dealership, like Mercedes, Porsche, Maserati, or Kia and stealing a fully loaded completely gassed up vehicle and hitting the road to discover what America means to you?

I mean, it's silly to fantasize about getting a winning lottery ticket when you don't play the lottery. But stealing a car is well within almost anyone's reach, just watch Fox News.

Reading an item in the paper about some guy, there was a sentence buried in his bio, like it was an afterthought, about him hopping on a 10 speed bike and riding from California to New York without any sponsorship or fanfare just because he had lost his job and had nothing else to do.

I couldn't read anymore of the article. I just kept rereading the sentence. Whatever it was. It gave no more info. It didn't say anything about weather conditions, where he slept, what troubles he encountered, or what he ate.

You know it couldn't have been easy. You know it must have taken a long time. You know his ass must've hurt.

Still, I thought about it all day. I thought, I bet he lost a lot of weight and I wondered if there was a job waiting for him at the other end?

My friends Aaron and Sow just got back from a long drive to Washington state. Aaron told me, as many have in the past, that Portland would be my perfect city. I've never been there. When I go on the Portland section of Craig's List, I never find a job for me.

I wonder if I could do my acting workshop in Portland? I wonder if there is enough of a community of actors there to support it and me? I don't know.

I watched a fascinating documentary called, "Camp Hollywood" by Steve Markle about a hotel on Franklin Ave where actors stay when they come into town to find fame.

Brad Pitt supposedly lived there for over a year. If you get a chance to see the film, I highly recommend it. Anyone outside living life of the mind could see the film as being depressing, however I found it very inspiring. Creative people finding friendship and community while surviving unemployment.

I seriously doubt I would ever ride a 10 speed across America, or steal a car, or move to Portland, but I wouldn't mind winning a lottery. I guess you just have to play to win.