I feel it being 9/12, it would be poor taste to go out and enjoy myself when so many are suffering, plus if there are LA terrorist threats as is rumored by the guy that lives under the discarded couch next to where I park the car, I don't wanna be buried under the rubble while watching "Beerfest."

Maybe "The Illusionist" but not "Beerfest" or "Step Up."

I know I'll never forget where I was on that day however many years ago it was, but I think I need to try and get over the constant sadness I feel.

I need to try and move on with my life.

Walking around seems to help. However, I notice I am looking down too much. I need to pick my head up and look to the sky more, but when I do I trip over things.

When I get sad, which is actually most of the time, and I find people being mean to me, which is all the time, I think I'd like to live in a tree house far, far away in some forrest where no one lives and is far away from any cities and noise.

It would need to be lower to the ground than most tree houses as my fear of heights seems to have grown.

I'd also need to have satellite tv so I could watch my shows.

Oh, and be near a 24 Hour Diner so I could get my food and see strippers stopping in for coffee and pie after getting off work at 2AM when the clubs close.

But other than that, completely desolate.