Did you know that at the center of a star there is a heart?

Click on the picture, you will see what I mean.

I get to wake up every morning to these beautiful flowers. How can I be sad with these bright blue faces looking at me?

Oddly, these flowers are right next to the dumpster, so I like to think of it as, sometimes great beauty rises out of trash.

I had a wonderful dream where my mom came to wake me up and take me to a thrift store. We walked up and down the aisles of old and very much used items as she told me stories of all the places she's been since I last saw her.

Every once in awhile I will have dreams about her and be sad after I wake up, but not this time. It seemed so real and sweet. I laid on the bed and stared at the ceiling as her perfume faded away.

I received an e-mail later in the day from the girl I used to date and love very much. I haven't spoken her or written to her since we parted. I was going through a difficult part of my life, yet as I write that, when is life not difficult?

I handled things badly and she didn't deserve to be ignored. I hate to be the cause of anyone's sadness and unfortunately the way I deal with pain is to ignore it.

I am a coward.

In the letter she explained to me someone in her family had committed suicide. She is dealing with all that lies in the wake of that trauma and she paused to remind me of a time when I showed her my scars.

Sometimes when things are going good and the surface of the water is smooth as a mirror, a gate opens and I blurt out some secret. Some puzzle piece that was missing for others, but that I share hoping with you I can be complete.