Still sick! But something amazing changed in me today, like a Dark cloud lifted away.

Funny, because it was very cloudy with some rain today. I'm ready to move to Portland or London.

I had to get out of the house, but was just as happy getting out of bed. I hate being sick. I have cabin fever on top of the fever I have. Ate at Hooter's to lift my spirits. Got sick and threw up in Barnes and Noble's bathroom minutes later. My fever faded. Felt amazingly better and as I walked around the store with puke breath and an empty stomach I saw people in a different light.

The old Black man by New Arrivals I imagined would look better in a thick knit sweater not unlike Bill Cosby wore on "The Cosby Show."

The young thin tall White kid in the Music section shouldn't be ashamed of his height. He needn't slouch anymore.

The short round Hispanic lady in the Self Help area shouldn't be afraid to be seen looking at Sexual Relationship books.

It was like I could see auras or something. It was like I knew what was best for everyone. It was like I had the answer to everyone's problem.

I felt my own spine straighten. Vertebrae separated and fluid pleasantly flowed free between them. Aches dissolved.

Something told me my life was better. I was going to make a difference. I was mutating in a perfect way to what I was always meant to be.

If someone was to ask me, "What should I do with my life," I would have the perfect answer for them. I knew. I know. I do.

I certainly have flooded my brain with that question aimed at myself so much these last months. Looking in a mirror in my mind, I have the perfect answer to that question now and the Sun has shown through the Dark clouds.

I should throw up more often.