Power went out again at my house.

The heat woke me up.

I need to go shoot some video today, but I can't sleep and I know it's going to be rough.

The only thing that seems to help me sleep other than drugs is a drive in my car. I might need to get out there and drive a while.

Where can I go?

What will I see?

What will I listen to while I drive? Art Bell? The static in my head? The sound of my car rolling off the side of the road and the airbag inflating after I've fallen asleep?

I wish someone would rub my belly. Then I know I could go to sleep. Sleep as long as that somebody was pretty and not some ugly scary dude, but not so pretty as I might get all horny and then need the sexthing.

Someone average and nonthreatening in that sexual way...

Maybe someone like Ellen Degeneres... She might rub my belly good.

Then again, she's so spastic she actually might hurt me.

I wish my mother wasn't dead, she'd do a great job like she did when I was a baby.

But how weird would that be for a 39+ year old guy getting his belly rubbed by his mother cause he can't sleep?

She's dead and rubbing my belly and she's dead!!!

Now for sure I'm not fucking sleeping, how scary and fucked up is that thought?

I'm pulling the covers up over my head now.